Sunday, July 2, 2017

En Route "Home"

March 18th, 2017 

Glory be to God for all things! 

We're finally on the plane in Amsterdam heading to Washington, D.C.  It feels as if we didn't even leave he Amsterdam airport. Everything we saw here when we first landed, all the shops and constant flow of people, are the same, but we are not the same people, as our experience has completely shifted our perspective. 

This morning we were quickly fed Oreo croissants and tea and rushed out of the door. I barely was able to say "mulsomesk" to the concierge while stuffing my face with the croissant and grabbing my belongings. 

Livieu stayed with us during the evening and then saw us off on the bus at 3am, thanking us and inviting us to come back for a summer and stay with Oskor at Pro Vita. He is truly amazing, he took off work to show us around the city and then spent his time making sure we were taken care of. Glory be to God! 

On the bus, some of us were surprisingly super awake, others not so much. There was a feeling of spiritual high, for me a least, that I realized especially to the stark contrast of the woman watching a romantic film next to me. I felt an imbalance watching her screen while fingering my new prayer rope. I felt that this spiritual high was slightly dulled by the ideas being conveyed by the movie; an idealized version of love when Christ is the True Love we experienced everyday of our stay in so many ways, small and large. 

Airport... on the plane it was funny because while some of us were asking for orange juice on a 6:45am flight, others around us had beer and wine --- when in Romania... we were just lacking Divine Liturgy and hot red wine. 

It is amazing to me to think that this morning while we were flying, at the church in Valea Poplai there was morning Liturgy going on and the children were heading to school and going about their regular activities. 

It's amazing how life can be changed so much in one week...change is a strong word. Instead, we all experienced something profound, in different ways and God answered our prayers, questions, and unknowns in mysterious and unique ways. 

I think the impact of this trip will be realized little by little. I know for each of us we were stunned by the love, humility, and person of Christ we experienced in everyone we met. 

Only God knows and truly all we can strive to do is live with intensity in every moment for Christ in the situation and age and time he has given us, just like Father Tenasi, truly a man with his soul on fire (or like a firecracker) for Christ. 

Sitting next to Father is great, whenever any kind of food comes he immediately blesses it :)

Orthodox Dating advice - We would get a bit every night and as some of our team was told on another Real Break trip, the priest knew the woman he was going to marry once he tasted her lasagna, therefore they were told to learn how to make good lasagna. As some of our team members were leaving for their next domestic flight "Don't waste your time learning how to make lasagna, wait for the guy who will make the lasagna for you." GOLD.... 







Just Ask God

Glory to God for all things who is wondorous in His Saints!

Our last day in Romania... 
We spent the day visiting more churches, monasteries, and bookstores. 

We first visited the monastery of St. Antim, who translated many of the Liturgical texts into Greek, Arabic, Romanian, other languages, and was first a slave, then freed, then made Metropolitan while also being a master woodworker. Amazing! 

The monastery was beautiful. The tower at the monastery, as later explained by the monk who gave us a tour, was a meeting place for the movement of the Burning Bush, which truly continued to grow the Faith during many trials. 

In the church, we came towards the end and soon all the priests moved into the back of the church where there was koliva (boiled wheat in remembrance of the dead) waiting to be blessed. Everyone moved to the back of the church and at some point I thought all the women were going closer to grab their own koliva but they grabbed the loaves of bread and koliva and held them up while everyone else came closer and put their hand on the shoulder of the person in front of them. There were two girls in front of me, around my age, and at first I had no idea what was going on. Eventually I put my hand on the girls shoulder and felt a tingling in my fingers and hand... we were definitely all connected in ways we cannot explain, with the living and those who are in the next world. 


There was an old woman next to me that would cross herself profusely. Eventually I noticed to my surprise that she had no fingers on that hand, just a thumb, but that didn't stop her from crossing herself and I wondered what her story was... 

After church, one of the older women made sure that each of us got a bag of koliva and kissed many of our groups hands and hugged them. She was so full of humility and joy. 

We visited many other churches (check out the pictures) and got to see the relics of St. Constantine who was beheaded with his sons for championing Orthodoxy. The church he built houses his relics and we got to see the epitaphio cloth that his wife wove in his memory. Amazing... 
Here is the list of churches: 
St. Spyridon - old church 
Church Zlatari
St. George the New - St. Constantine's body is here 
Stravropolios 
St. Antoni 


We took a mini sitting break over coffee and tea t hang out with the members of Oskor who has joined us for the day. It was fantastic (especially sitting down). 

The last church we visited of St. Antonios was so beautiful. There I felt a sense of true Orthodoxy, while standing in line waiting to venerate the icons. There was I believe a Russian Byzantine chant CD playing and just watching the people waiting for church to start was eye opening. The peace was indescribable. What really impressed me was watching a young women around my age, go and stand in front of the icon of Christ for some time. In my mind I wondered what she was praying for, what struggles she was bringing in front of Christ, and I had a fleeting moment of full Truth that this is not just a Faith of empty words; there is full Personhood in Christ that can be experienced - this Faith is real - sometimes I definitely take this for granted and this was for me, in an indescribable way, a mini reawakening to the Truth. 

Dinner was blessed with a visit and time spent with his Eminence Varlaam who is the viceroy and assitant to the Romanian Patriarch. Really cool as we shared about Orthodoxy in Romania, America, and during the Communist regime. 

After we had our debrief of the week, where we were challenged to look back on the week and see what happened. We all agreed that in our lives back at home we want to strive to carry the fire and love that we saw in Father Tenasi, in Melanie and Mixhai, and the children of Pro Vita. 

In the beginning of the week, Father Robert had challenged us ask God for something that we wanted to get out of the week. As many of us shared, it was amazing to see that all the things we asked God for were answered in some way. For me, my big question was "why am I even here in Romania?" followed by questions about upcoming life descisions and transferrring choices. And God truly answered my prayers and unknowns. They have not been fully answered, but were answered in a mysterious way that brought me peace and the knowledge that in due time all will come. Glory be to God!

We stayed up until 1 am, then some of us didn't sleep and others power napped until we had to leave at 3 am.  :)  









St. Constantine and his sons 

His grave 

Our Time with ASKOR

March 16th 2017 

Our meeting with ASKOR was amazing. I thought it was going to be something small, but we walked into the church and there must have been at least 40 young adults, that all came to speak with us, which made us feel so loved. 

We sat in a circle inside the church on the floor (there are no pews) and everyone introduced themselves as we waited for their spiritual advisor Father Vasili who was also a student of Father George Calciu. When he arrived we asked questions back and forth about Orthodoxy in our respective countries. 

It was interesting that ASKOR was saying that many times they are seen as "fanatics" in their peer groups because they go to church or are passionate about living their Orthodox Faith. I was very shocked as I thought that it must be a lot easier in an Orthodox country. It was interesting to share our experiences of living in a nation with all different faiths and how we are called to be witnesses and to learn from other faiths. 

There was a sense of an indescribable bond - because Christ was our unifier. Immediately, we all felt like friends and were open to sharing about our different struggles and experiences. It was such a beautiful experience! 

One of the most beautiful moment for me was chanting Agni Parthene with the girls I just met. The one girl handed me a note because she spoke a little bit of Greek, and from my name figured I also spoke Greek. There was another girl from Greece I met and another one that was part of their group. I felt like I knew them forever and chanting together as first strangers and then sisters was so amazing. We then all took turns chanting in the various language we knew throughout the group and were all super bummed when we had to stop chanting and actually go back to the hotel. 

Glory be to God!!! 

 
 
 
 
 

Off to Bucharest

March 16th 2017
Glory be to God!

We did morning prayers and then Raresh and Alex came back early from school to spend time with us which was super nice. They served us during breakfast wouldn't sit with us while we were eating, since they were not, and it was considered rude to do so. 

We said our last goodbyes and hit the road for a 3 hour trek to Bucharest. 

We first went to Liturgy to say goodbye to Father Tenasi. Father Tenasi walked in late and went straight for the altar with a bag. We late found out that he was asking Father Robert about hat sizes, in a typical Father Tenasi waynof outting hats on Father Robert and attempting to find a match and then expecting that Father knew the hat sizes of the PKs dads,  in order to give him a fez and two for the priest kids dads. We were told it would be a quick in and out, but we stayed a bit longer. Some of us went up to the chanting stand to help out and of course ten minutes later Father Tenasi comes out with Father Robert behind him, beckoning to us to go outside. 

We said our good byes to the man, the myth, the legend (I say that seriously- he is truly filled with the Holy Spirit). Father Tenasi is amazing. He was joking about how many times to kiss each person since we were all from different cultures with different greeting traditions. 
I didn't want to leave Liturgy. The village church had a feeling of peace and joy that I knew we would not experience again for some time, (Godwilling we go back). And the iconography was  just stunning, especially while watching the iconographers work...

En route we found out that the money that is for donated from our trip to Pro Vita has helped build the girls house and other houses in the Pro Vita network, which is quite amazing! Glory be to God! 

En route we also heard on the radio that tomorrow is the international day of sleep, obviously we won't be participating... 

We arrived in Bucharest and were quickly dropped off on the sidewalk near the Patriachate, where we suffer our bags into the mini elevator, climbed to the fourth floor and then hit the road on foot. 

We stopped by a roadside bakery to grab an apple tart and then headed to St. Spyridon's new cathedral where we were joined by Radu and Livieu, our guides from the Orthodox Christian Fellowship of Romania, called Oskor. 
St. Spyridon's church was amazing, especially for me since the church had a relic of St. Spyridon... 

We then headed to the church of St. Nektarios, then a Monastery and then the Seminar. We got to see the courtyard in which Father George Calciu preached his seven sermons to the youth during the Communist regime. Many priests we met during this trip, such as Father Tenasi were some of the students who were there in the courtyard listening to the sermons until Father George was locked up once again... amazing, amazing, amazing. 

We then visited the oldest church in Bucharest, and if I remember correctly the man who built it was names Buchar and the city ended up being named after him. Also, there were 33 steps leading up to the church and the church's street adress was 33; the age of Christ. 

We then visited the Patriarchate church which I thoroughly enjoyed; the chanting, watching people pray and always shock me how long they can kneel... my favorite part that really impacted me was the Lenten Prayer of St. Ephraim, when the whole church was participating in the prayer by praying the words and making prostrations. It was also interesting that as we were leaving the priest kneeled in front of the people and I think he was going to do a sermon... 

Dinner was amazing... we were all so hungry from walking around and all the guys were surprised how fast I ate... oops 

After, we walked through the nightlife of Bucharest to get to Russian church that was tucked away to meet Oskor...Oskor will have their own post.  

 
What is this thing on your head? 
 
Church of St. Spyridon 


Seminary where Father George Calciu have his seven sermons to the youth 
 

 
 
 

Prayers, Coffee, Breakfast & Go With the Flow

March 15th, 2017

Here we go! Last day at the Orphanage...
Breakfast -  Bread, always a staple  

Service projects 

Julianna, Christiana, and I helped sort books that had been donated.
I attempted to read whatever French book fell into my hands :)  I {tried} reading the German puzzle book with Casandra and laughed at the children's books together
Outside they were taking apart the fence since it was a fire hazard and at some point, all the kids from Pro Vita had the screwdrivers and we were joking how we came overseas to help and all the kids had the screwdrivers... :) 

Lunch and interview with Father Tenasi

He put the microphone in his beard... we thought he was kidding, but he was completely serious.  

Gems from Father Tenasi

~ Live with intensity 
~ If you are a couple holding hands is good, as long as Christ is at the center
~ If there is sin, there is no longer liberty 

~ He who drinks well sleeps well. He who sleeps well does not sin. He who doesn't sin will be saved. Therefore, he who drinks well will be saved. 

~ Make use of your youth

~ Live in the moment, not 5 years ahead of time. When you're 18, be 18. Don't be 26. 26 will come you'll never be 18 again
~ Live the fullest for Christ 

Coffee time...
We had coffee and chilled then walked around with the kids

Vespers - fleeting, but permeating peaceful moment - prayer of St. Ephraim not much room and doing the half prostrations - girl made sure I did my cross with my hand going all the way to my left shoulder - didn't feel angry just a lot of love though I thought to myself that I should be a little bit annoyed 

Dinner - soup and bread as always
Chanter from the local church came and brought us his homemade white wine to wish us well on our journey to Bucharest 
Homemade prune juice - interesting stuff 

Saying goodbye - touched me more than I thought especially Raresh - basic French with Johnny 

Debrief - pretty emotional - 
We must be bold for Christ - persecutions today 
Vulnerability to love and be loved 
Much more difficult than we thought. 

Told three times today that I look Romanian and "look too Romanian" 

Comforters without sheets 

 
 
 
 
 

God Works Through Seatbelts

March 14th 2017

Glory be to God! Today was amazing, we had no plans.

Even in the morning, a van came to pick us up but of course that wasn't the right van. And once we were all situated and on the way to church in the adjoining village, we saw Father Tenasi coming in a van to pick us up, obviously leaving church to make sure that we got there. 

We thought we were going to Divine Liturgy and were told that we would leave before the Eucharist. But we got there and some of our group was volunteered to chant in English and turns out it was Pre-Sanctified Liturgy and we stayed the whole service. There were not as many people today, but I was shocked by the piety of the lady next to me. She must have been at least 85-90 and kneeled for most of the service. I was having a hard time kneeling and could barley focus but she was kneeling and chanting and completely present. 

At the same time the iconography was being finished in the church and it was amazing to watch the iconographers at work during the service, because truly they were still participating as they chanted while working. We made comments later during our debrief that it was amazing to see the iconographers at work and then see a church at the monastery completely covered with icons; no wall space. 

It was funny also that during church a little bell would keep dinging, like the ones at a front desk of a hotel. We were so confused until Father Robert came out and told us that we needed to kneel or prostrate when the bell rang... Another funny thing was when the Romanian chanter would read the pre-verses to the Old Testament readings and say in his Romanian accent, "we will now be reading from the book of Proverbs." 

After church, we were walking into the smaller narthex area where "coffee hour (a feast)" was taking place and on the way one of the priest came next to me and gave me a huge hug and said "I love you," which I responded with "I love you too Father" and he said "No, I love you even more" and it was so amazing because you could feel the love he has for all of us although we do not speak the same language. 

In the coffee hour, there was a full out meal with real plates and silverware - no waste minus the small plastic cups for drinks. We definitely had a Romanian cultural experience, being offered the cherry whiskey that the iconongrapher did not hide well according to the chanter, homemade red wine, and so much food and dessert. Between bites, we would break out in Romanian Orthodox folk songs or chants and in between Kerri was taking a picture of the Romanian beer which made Father Tenasi just give three of the girls an entire unopened bottle to bring home. 

During Coffee hour, Christiana and I began speaking to a man we had seen in church the day before. His name is Sotirios and we found out that he is half Greek and half Romania. We was telling us that his Yiayia was from Keflalonia and his parents as well as his work as an engineer and his cousin in Florida. He said that his cousin was actually in Romania right now he had not reached out to him yet, but he was sure that he would just find him, no stress at all. We asked him about an old picture hanging from the window of a destroyed church, that we thought was maybe the church we were in. He didn't know the answer and he excused himself. We thought he was leaving, but he went and asked a priest to give us an accurate answer. After we talked some more, he left but soon came back to tell us something about his Yiayia or something, and asked for our names. When I told him mine he was so happy at how Greek it was and kissed my hand and embraced me. 

The iconographer was also super friendly and shared his wifi with me in order to find him on Facebook and show us his daughter and such, as well as his wood carvings which were incredible! 

We left church and had no idea where we were going. In the car Mirian our driver was looking at Father while speaking with him, while there's a bus coming towards us and a dog crossing the street. Lord have mercy :) 

Life here is so exciting - Father made a good point that life in the U.S is super programmed, we all stick to a schedule where our minute to minute is planned out, which leaves little room for Faith in God because we barley have "time" to take to reflect. 

We drove to Chinetu Sentra a House for High School Girls which houses max 20 girls and acts as a home for girls from the Pro Vita Orphanage to live closer to the High school. It was a beautiful facility and I was really touched by what Melania, the director there, said - "we want this to be a home, not an institution."

We drove again to see the other houses and facilities of Pro Vita. According to people in the car, Father Tenasi was driving while texting, with both hands barley on wheel. God truly works through this man. He was constantly sought after on the phone and hearing the work he has done and then seeing it, is truly awe-inspiring. At one point Father Tenasi went rogue with the second van; nothing is planned here. It's awesome. 

We stopped by the gypsy district, where Pro Vita through Father Tenasi's vision, is building a house for gypsy families that is clean and provides food and clothes. He told us that the gypsies have been Romaniancized, but keep to themselves and have created a sub-culture with their own language and schools, where according to Father they do not learn the right things. Also, there is a stigma around them because they still steal and are dirty, and give off this negative appearance. Father made a point that on both sides no one is doing enough. The Romanians see them as dirty because of their actions, but both sides need to work on healing the rift together. Father Tenasi hopes to fix this problem in 200 years, but he made a point that it needs to start now. They are also building a chapel at the back end of the new house. 

Father Tenasi also shared how they have centers in different cities that help women in abusive relationships and crises presgancies, to build a life and get on their feet with their children, and then they can decide to go back or not. No one is turned away ever. That village also has no church, so behind the center we saw where they feed people, and they are God willing building a church there in the open field. Father Tenasi is amazing!!! Glory be to God for his strength! 

Funny occurrence. We randomly pull over while we're driving somewhere (we weren't sure where -we just trust in God) and there's a young couple on the side street about to kiss and we almost hit them so we start joking that there wasn't room for the Holy Spirit, therefore we had to interrupt. 

On our way, we stopped by another Pro Vita house ministry where women who are more so on their feet work and sew to make a living. Everything was so, so beautiful!! 

Then we came to Crasna Monastery - 
There was a gold icon star 1865 from Vienna 

St Christopher - there was an icon of a young man with the head of a donkey. Apparently, one of the stories is that St. Christopher was so beautiful that he was pursued by many and he asked God to take away his beauty as to not make anyone fall into sin. What a difference from the emphasis we place on our beauty today! 

Clouds pass - there were huge dark clouds above us but the sun was beginning to peak out and the monk told us that just as the rainy clouds will pass away, all the struggles and difficulties will also pass. The sun will always come out again... 

Chandelier - respects the grace of God 

Lunch - ouzo and wine - this is not America 
Blessing in the smaller church of Romanian saints. All kneeled in front of Father Vasili and he blessed us with his ephitrohelion, we were packed close together and he did the sign of the cross over all our heads. Literally 8-10 minute blessing in rapid Romanian and then we were blessed with Holy Oil for the second time today. 

Wow talking with the monks was so great. I asked what their name was but I guess I pronounced it wrong and they brought the English speaking monk to make a joke about it to us. The joke of cunta qiuoma which means what's your name but instead they took it as who are you and we laughed a lot about it, after Larry and I were mortified. 

- Talking to three monks for a while about the monastery how there was one monk left during communism - asking how old they are. 
-Faith in Christ humility patience - joking around - talking about St. Spyridon - monks are so cool 
Told us we have to come back and stay longer - asking how much plane tickets were 

The road is made this way to increase everyone's Faith - Fr. Robert 

Hospitality - even though it's Lent you're still our honored guest 
- we even went back to the girl home near the High School for a second dinner. We were stuffed. 

This is awesome, I love this country. 

- If you have a mixed marriage you're sending missed signals and you're not showing the Truth - you're not living Orthodoxy 

- What's the use without Christ 

Blown away by Melanie and her husband Mixai and their story of meeting and getting involved in ministry,  especially their Christ centered work for Pro Vita. 

Glory to God for all things! 




















Friday, June 23, 2017

Hiking - Day 3

March 13th, 2017

Today we spent time with the kids at the Orphanage...

~ We were in one of the chapels on the Pro Vita property, the farther of the two, and began chanting various hymns. Although we sang most of them in English all the kids were respectful and stood in chapel watching us until we did some hymns in Romanian.

~ So much love; love, love, love from everyone to everyone - so much laughter and joy

~ I was told I look apparently older and more mature because my mind is higher "like a lady's..." I guess the glasses make me look like a teacher or something :)
~ Sense of strong, connected, supportive family

~ During Vespers each kid came up and hugged the girls in our group... so beautiful 

~ All feeling that we are getting attached... 


Walking around Pro Vita 

Chapel that is higher up





Raresh & Christiana 


Chanting in the Chapel